Welcome to my diary. Here I share my journey and life with multiple sclerosis (MS).
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So I trek through the day, days, God forbid...but he does, weeks going through internal, invisible torture. I do not like feeling at mercy to my body. But at times I am. When I think “walk,” my legs fall under me causing me bruises on my legs and thighs that have become my “new normal.”
I find it insultingly hilarious that little did Ms. Attendant know this week has been fire and brimstone for my lower back, legs, and nerves. A relapse that started Sunday has continued its teeth-gritting pain on my lower back and legs, and for that small run to the tax collector’s office, I planned to muster up courage and walk in without a cane not be judged by a disease, a disability you can’t see.
A year with MS has taught me a lot about myself. What my body will and will not do, but most importantly what I will and will not accept from this disease.
I was at a point in my life where “I needed to get out!” In a way, this is a declaration to a new me. Forecfully so, but for the better.
Saturday it hit me that there are things I can no longer do. Whether temporarily or permanently is still to be determined. To fight MS is to punch at air, every day is different and unexpected.
