The COVID Blues
Whether you like it or not suicide, depression, anxiety are issues we must talk about and take seriously. I’m handling my “isms,” are you?
SO I haven’t taken depression meds in a little over two months. A bit of a gamble given I spike high on the depression scale—so call me a gambler.
We are now on orders to now stay at home to reduce the spread of COVID-19. With having MS, I have already been in quarantine…a few weeks ahead of most. With MS I have a WEAK ASS (que in W.A.B) immune system and can’t afford to take unnecessary gambles so I’ve been posted up at home.
Given the past few weeks I knew that “eventually your depression will kick in. What will you do?” But with COVID and other life crises that snatched away my time I let “depression whoas” fall to the back burner.
NOW SHE IS HERE.
I’ve been getting better at gaging my levels of depression and attempting to jump ahead the big moods, when need be. I have a lot going on right now with the acting power of attorney, ending the semester strong amongst other whoas, so I am attempting to get ahead now while I can. I wanted to share what I am using to wiggle my way out of my “COVID Blues”:
Artwork
The many colors, designs…
My sister has suggested that I buy a canvas countless times. I’ll nod my head and will even say “you’re right,” and go back to whatever I was doing. I don’t like to paint. I don’t like the mess. While struggling with drop-foot in Target I saw this canvas and it was simply perfect. The only adjustment, I am going to try markers instead of paint.
The Reads
Spring reads.
I have been LONG staling on the fact that I need to read more. Originally, the goal was one book a month, to which I failed. Now given quarantine, I am finding my focus AND also using this therapy to retrain my brain and body to sit down, get focused on the task at hand, and to not move. During the MS Conference this year, I was gifted TITLE as a resource to cope with my MS, and to now learn to be okay with being disabled.
Four books...the goal is to be done in four months…starting in April.
AYE, these DIYs!
Where to hang?
I am not sure where it came from, but there was this immediate yearning to get my hands on some land! It has been a COLORFUL journey since purchasing our first property and hope to purchase a few more. Right now, I am making modern, DIY fixes to upgrade it to be juuusttt a little bit more fancier than when we bought (shade to June).
Meditate
Subtle scents.
The few times I have tried meditation it has helped me with finding peace. In times of a needed soothing I am finding the mat is the place to go. I like my bottom a bit cushioned so I stack the yoga mat, blanket and sometimes a fluffed exercise pillow for comfort.
The Type-A
Have we spoken of my type-A. I can let things get out of order for maybe three (3) days, then it's time for a deep clean and organize and this COVID quarantine has given me the time to make it so. Organizing prior to MS was how I lived, with MS, organizing, a list, reminders, these gems are even more essential to me staying on task. I have been organizing my traditional and digital files, LMAO, YAS! I have that much shit. Trashing things, hoarding things, coveting things. Boxes are perfectly packaged and tape is securely sealed. I am at Type-A PEACE right now.
